there is something that i can't get out of my head .
it's not like i haven't tried i've been trying from the very begining of it but still things have gotten worse and worse everyday , it is not easy for me to move on ; i mean i don't even want to move on !
cause in this case i will not only lose one of my best friends .
i can't ignore this fact that but i will lose the most special person of my life.
it was never easy to say goodbye.
i don't have the courage to fight for you even though i want you more than anything ,
and i dont have the strength to put you behind me ,i just don't want to but it seems i have to .
i'm just a shadow ,living the nightmare .
living the shitty life...